i truely do want to come out, but i don't want to end up isolating myself from anyone who's ever cared about me (other than my boyfriend and a few of my very accepting friends). i need help badly. it hurts keeping it in. i cried myself to sleep last night, and am on the verge of doing so again tonight. but i know that i'll only bring in pain to replace the pain of keeping it in if i come out, which just makes it hurts that much more.