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Posted on April 4th, 2009 ~ 6:39 pm

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So this may seem weird and all but its been buggin me a lot lately, so i figured what the hell may as well ask some of u guys and get ur info on it.

Is there such a thing as being like half a sissy. I'm 20 years old, i go to the gym 4 times a week and i would consider myself in decent shape, i play hockey at university and i shave my head near bald. I listen to metal and to everyone who knows me i come off as ur typical guy; however when i'm in my room i find myself exploring this fetish of mine. I frequent this site and many others several hours of the day.

Its weird, having normal sex with a girl does not interest me in any way [makes things with my gf kinda of aqward.......] and when i masturbate its to ab/sissy stuff, however after i finish i feel somewhat disgusted at myself for what i just finished doing. Honestly sometimes i can't even imagine myself as an ab since i've basically turned off my emotions in an effort to hide this fetish from everyone to prevent it from ever being found out. Its gotten to the point where i can't even say the word baby aloud, i rether to babies as children or infants as if the word baby is some sort of taboo to me.

So like is this normal or am i completly insane :( The only time i have the urge to admit to myself i'm a sissy if when i'm aroused >.>

Any of u guys have this problem when u were younger?

edit - couple more facts to help u guys develop more of a idea what kind of person i am. I'm very submissive [despite my physical appearance] and rly can't say no to anyone, i avoid confrontation and i'm a compulsive liar who manipulates everyone around him to the point where he's basically alienating anyone who shows an interest in him. My sister and I live in the same house [i took the year off from university] and we speak to each other maybe once a week for 10 minutes...... if that.

Also if my comments offend anyone, my sincerest apologies. THis has just been nagging at me lately and i figured i may as well see if i can get some feedback.

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SissyJessy

Posted April 4th, 2009 ~ 6:54 pm

I'm pretty much in the same situation as you right now with less experience, so I can't really say much to confront, but I can say that you aren't alone. I do, every once in awhile, think about how odd it is I have this fetish/hobby, when it doesn't match my public personality at all. I never really understand it too well, but I kind of just figure I have time to figure it out before I get into a serious relationship or something.

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diapered_tiffany

Posted April 5th, 2009 ~ 5:27 am

I'm glad to see I'm not the only one. I feel the same way, except I have a fiancee that totally supports me. Imagine that. A totally attractive young woman that fully supports both my AB and cross dressing side, but I only feel bad about my fem side. It drives me crazy.

However, I do enjoy hetero sex. It's because i'm fantasizing about being being on the other end while i'm doing it. I fantasize about being on the other end nonstop during the day. It bothers me so much when i realize the crazy **** that goes through my mind.

The point of my little ramble is to let you know that there is help out there. I'm too "ashamed" to ask for any, but people can help you.

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littlegirl_inside

Posted April 5th, 2009 ~ 3:18 pm

Everything you have said could be true for many sissies. The thing to remember is there are no rules. I remember years ago reading a letter in a sissy magazine from a lady who said her husband was this big burly man who ran his own department in some big company but as soon as he came home each and everyday he got dressed in his little girl clothes and spent the evening playing with dolls.

For some 'sissy' is a fetish, a sexual relief, for others a lifestyle and for some it is just a way to get over a stressful day. There is nothing to say that every sissy must be femmine looking in the real world to make them a sissy.

The having sex thing is not wierd. I am the same, I do not find sex natural and so I don't have it. The masturbating thing is the same as you, I fantasizse about being a little girl. Feeling disgusting afterwards is not un-common, but will stop once you accept you like ab/sissy stuff. A lot of what you have said happened to me when I was your age, I am now 37 and it took a long time to accept myself. I am not like you though in that I now want to be a little girl fulltime, however no matter how often you dress etc you have to accept that part of yourself to be happy. It wont go away, you can't hide it, it will always be there, but once you accpet it, you can then start to enjoy it.

Avoiding confrontation, lying etc is all a part of you trying to hide that part of yourself you don't want others to see or find out about. I was similar, I did not get close to others, never let my guard down, could never open up. The main thing to remember is dressing up as a baby girl does not make you a sissy, it does not define who you are. It's ok to dress as a sissy, just as much as it is ok to be a sissy. For me I am a sissy no matter what clothes I wear and over the years I have become more and more sissy. I am not saying this will happen to you, but I have found the more I accepted who I was, the more freedom it gave me and the more I wanted it.

Feel free to pm me anytime if you have any concerns x x x

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caressa

Posted April 11th, 2009 ~ 8:44 am

I think you're basically normal, and that genetics plays-in. -Because of the work hard, play hard aegis. Sissy/AB's are generally in the high-IQ bracket. A lot of the 'tomboyish' aspects of sissiness are naturally programmed-in... like feeling disgust after an orgasm. That stems from the male-pattern of 'okay, we just had sex with the cave-entrance unguarded, but now I've gotta get back to guarding/protecting the cave or hunting for food, etc... no time for erstwhile glow-basking.'

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