Thats when I heard mum say "this is the last time I cant keep going through this if you leave now dont come back our son will be better off with one happy parent than two unhappy ones.In a very loud voice almost shouting ,(as if maybe I should hear ) my father said "SON" sometimes I wonder. The way you molly coddle him he carries on more like a girl than a boy .You are turning him into a sissy .I heard the door slam and I buried my head under the pillow it was starting to scare me .
The next morning I got up dressed and went to see why no one else was up
I found mum in her bedroom and it was obvious from her swolen eyes she must have been crying for a long time .I asked her what was wrong pretending I hadnt heard the row during the night . nothing she said but your dad has gone away for a while.I didnt ask any more questions I made Mum a cup of tea gave her a big hug and told her I loved her lots .This put a slight smile on her face ,You are such a good boy she said you are so mature for only ten years old .
After a few weeks it became obvious my father wasnt coming back ,I started to feel like it was my fault ,maybe if I was more like him he wouldnt have left .Within the next week a for sale sign went up at the front of the house .Mum sat me down and tried to explain .apparently my dad (who I hadnt seen since the arguement) had met another woman and wanted a divorce .I burst into tears and sobbed uncontrolably mum held me tight and repeated over and over "dont cry we still have each other ".I felt even more responsible after this so I tried as hard as I could to be the perfect child in the coming weeks .Everything seemed to be happening so fast ,one day the house was for sale then we were packing mum found a new job in another county and before I knew it we were moving..
The new house was smaller but it was just out of town so it was nice and quiet ,Mum suggested I have the second bedroom as it was the biggest of the two remaining after hers . It was a great room even though it had probably had a young girl in it before me ,The room was painted light pink and had a border of wallpaper with pink flowers ,the curtains matched and the built in wardrobe was a darker pink ,there was also a pink dressing table with a big mirror .Mum said we would repaint and change the furniture round once we were settled. Otherwise I would have to take the small room,"This is fine" I said " I can put up with the colour scheme" .
Mum (who was an accountant) started her new job the very next day ,me I finished unpacking my room and tidied up while she was at work .Over the next couple of weeks mum seemed to be more happy than I had seen her for ages ,I tried to be as helpful as I could be and life was pretty good.On the following wednesday she came home after work with a cloudy look on her face,whats wrong mum I said ,It doesnt matter where you go someone from your past always turns up she said .A girl I went to school with turns out to be a client of the company and lucky me has to do her taxes ,when we were at school she was so competetive it used to drive me mad and guess what ? she hasnt changed .Turns out she has a daughter about the same age as you and for some reason she thinks I have a daughter ,so straight away she starts asking if I have entered you in the "Princess of the county" competition that is on next week during the anual fair ,Of course she said my little Stephanie is sure to win as she is just adorable .She made me so mad I told her to wait and see because I have entered you and you never know .I cant believe she agravated me so much that I told such a huge lie now I will have to tell her another and say we are going away that weekend .She paused to catch her breath and noticed the grin on my face ,whats so funny? she asked. Oh nothing its just strange to see you so stirred up.With that she started to laugh ,mind you I bet you wouldnt have found it so funny if I had really entered you would you ?she said as she leaned over and tickled me in the ribs .We both laughed and then set about what to have for dinner .
When I went to bed that night I couldnt stop thinking about the fair and the competition ,imagine if me" a boy" beat a girl in a beauty comp.The next morning mum kept looking at me strangely and giggling whats wrong? I said Nothing ,I was just wondering what you would look like in a dress ,Oh is that right well you may never know I said cheekily .Dont tempt me I could make you wear one any time I want too,"Dont forget you are just a child and I make the rules" she said laughing at the same time .(For some reason this seemed like an invitation to test the boundaries) you wouldnt dare I said .Is that right she said as she left the room, only to return less than a minute later with a dress over her arm.Lets see who is so tough now she said grabbing my arm and lifting off my tee shirt in one move.She quickly slipped the dress over my head and before I knew it was on .It was just a plain summer dress but for some reason it made my mums eyes light up once I had it on ,she told me to take off my jeans which I did, as I was beginning to enjoy this game and I knew complaining wouldnt help, besides I was only doing what I was told.
By this time she had her hand over her mouth and the biggest grin on her face I had ever seen .I guess I look funny I said .Oh no not at all you look very cute she said in fact you look so good I think I will make you stay in that dress for the rest of the day.
CHAPTER 2 Meet Madeline
Come and sit next to me and I will show you some photos you havent seen before she said pulling out an album from the drawer of the china cabinet .She opened it and there on the first page was a pretty little baby girl dressed in a white lacy dress with a matching bonnet ,"Who do you think that is?" she said.Thats easy its you I replied when you were a baby .No guess again ."I dont know"I said "but it sure looks like you" ." Actually" she said grinning"Its Madeline"."Who" I said "I dont think I have ever met a Madeline have I?"" I think its about time I told you about her ,it all started when you were born ,I really wanted a girl and I bought all the baby clothes for a girl ,I even decorated the nursery pink and then you popped out . Now dont get me wrong I couldnt love any child more than I love you but I was pretty confused .As babies dont really have a sex I convinced your father to let me dress you as a baby girl ,which I did and every time I took you anywhere people would lean into your pram and say what a pretty little girl I had.So thats where Madeline came from"she said (stoping for a well deserved breath)."After a while (nearly two years) your dad told me I would have to stop it before people found out.""Look here is a picture of your dad holding you, he doesnt look very happy ,probably because I made him hold you so I could get a photo.He has always said you were to pretty to be a boy and we used to argue a lot because he thought I spoilt you to much ".
"I dont remember anything from when I was a baby"I said "I wish I did I certainly look very happy" "Would you like to see some more photos now you know who Madeline is ?"So we spent the rest of the afternoon looking at baby photos and me listening to all the baby stories I had never heard before .
When it was time for bed I asked why we didnt have one of the photos in a frame ,Mum said she would love to have one on display if I didnt mind.I kissed mum goodnight and went off to bed ,When I got to my bedroom I noticed in the mirror I was still wearing the dress .
The next morning mum was very light hearted and and happy which made me very happy as well ,I figured it was because I now knew about Madeline,On the shelf above the fire were two new photos in frames ,one of Madeline Lying on a blanket and one of Madeline in mums arms .
Without realising what was coming out of my mouth I blurted out " Would it be alright for me to wear a dress again one day I had so much fun yesterday I would love to do it again"Do you mean that! because I would love to dress you up" mum replied.What about if I enter you in the "princess of the county competition",I already found out it goes in age groups so you would be in the eight to eleven year old group the same as Stephanie ."'Do you think I could wear a dress in public without anyone asking questions" "Not only could you do that but you might even win" she said ."Please enter me mummy" I said getting very excited ,Mummy laughed and said"do you realise you just called me mummy and not mum thats very girly miss Madeline" .
"You know your birthday is soon so how about we go shopping for and you can pick out what you would like and I will drop off the outfit You are going to wear for the competition at the dry cleaners" ."What outfit?"I said ."Oh thats right I forgot to tell you" she said laughing ,"when I was your age I had an outfit my mother made for me for a fancy dress and seeing as you have to dress up as a fairy tale person I thought you should go as ,Never mind you will see it will be a surprise. Would you like to go shopping as Madeline?" she asked ." Oh yes please" I squeeled without realising ,Mummy laughed grabbed me by the hand and steered me to her bedroom ,she opened her wardrobe and right at the front was a short pleated skirt and white frilly blouse there you are Maddie she said I already picked an outfit for you .Suddenly my name was shortened to Maddie and an outfit was already picked.(If I wanted to wear boys clothes I dont think it was going to happen) Mummy seemed to have already made the decisions ,She went to the drawers and picked out a pretty pair of pink panties a matching training bra and handed them to me with the skirt and top and sent me to get dressed .After battling with the bra clips for a while I called mummy for help ,she slipped it on and adjusted it so it was comfortable ."Would you like me to finish dressing you little girl" she said ."Yes please mummy" I replied .She unbuttoned the blouse and slipped my arms in then she stood me in the skirt and pulled it up< lifting it up she adjusted my blouse and zipped me up ,reminds me of when you were a baby she said smiling ,I like you dressing me mummy I replied I suppose you would like me to dress you every day she added.Ummmmmmmm yes please ,She leaned over and gave me a little smack on my bum and said I might just have to do that then you will wear exactly what I want you to.She brushed my hair which up till now I hated because it was so curly,Now looking in the mirror with it pulled forward over my face it looked really nice .Mummy gave me a pair of buckle up white sandles and I was ready.
CHAPTER THREE AND THE WINNER IS..................
When we arrived at the shopping centre a very scary feeling came over me here I was in public wearing girls clothes ,mummy took one look at my face and suggested we go back home .that wasnt what I really wanted so I said "if you hold my hand I will be alright I think."Mummy took my hand and steered me into the centre ,of course no one took any notice of me because I looked like any other little girl at the same age this made me feel very confident and I pulled mummy into the first shop we came to .Why are we going into the baby shop mummy asked ? I hadnt even noticed what shop it was all I saw was the pretty dresses in the window .Am I to old for this shop? I asked,not really but they dont make clothes for big baby girls she said laughing .Can I be your baby girl mummy I said squeezing her hand ,you are my baby girl but you could be my little baby girl if you want .I must have looked confused as she added I will explain later lets look around and see if there is something nice to buy you.On the rack next to the counter was lots of anklet socks all different colours and all with lace on the tops .Look mummy I said they are like the socks I had when I was a baby."I wonder if they have them in your size"she said just as the sales lady asked if she could help .Do you have these socks to fit my little girl? she asked .It looks like she has fairly small feet but most girls her age would think they were to babyish,"Well she isnt like most girls" mummy said and the sales lady quickly apologised and took a pair down for me to try on.Mummy slipped off my sandles and tried the socks for size "they fit perfectly" she said"I think you can leave the white pair on and if you like I will buy you one pair in each colour"Lets go to the toy shop and see if we can find you a birthday present" she said as she paid the lady.I could feel the lace on my socks rubbing on my legs as we walked through the mall to the toy shop,as soon as we were inside I knew exactly what I wanted (and had always wanted ever since I could remember)A doll with real hair I could brush and different outfits I could dress her in,but how was I going to ask ?That question was quickly answered when mummy said "Oh look at that doll I would have loved one like that when I was young" .This was my chance to ask ."Mummy" I said "am I to old to have a doll like that"?Mummy looked at me a little shocked ,are you sure thats what you want I dont want you to get something just because you want to make me happy."I always wanted a doll" I said "but because I was a boy I didnt ask before but seeing as I am your little girl today maybe I could have a doll I mumbled" ."I dont quite know what you just said you were mumbling but if you want a doll I will buy you one for your birthday" she said leaning down kissing me on the cheek ."You wont be able to have it till your birthday but we will take it with us now" . "Oh No Look at the time" she said "we had better get to the dry cleaners so I can drop off your outfit",we hurried round to the dry cleaners and mummy asked to have it back in one hour which wasnt a problem so we went off to the local cafe-restaraunt to have some lunch.While we were having lunch I tried to quiz mummy about my outfit but she was not telling no matter how hard I pleaded.After lunch we picked up the dry cleaning and headed home.
Mummy never said anything so I stayed in my skirt and blouse for the rest of the day.After dinner I was packed of to bed early because tomorrow was Saturday and the competition was on.Mummy took me up to bed and helped me get changed I wasnt looking forward to wearing boys pyjamas so I was pleasantly surprised when mummy produced a baby doll nightie in pink (of course)and slipped it over my head ,Now you match the bedroom she laughed as she tucked me in.I must have had a very exciting day because I just couldnt get to sleep and was still awake when mumy came to check on me .You should be asleep by now she said I better get you some warm milk that usually helps .Mummy came back and gave me a special tablet to take with my warm milk and laughingly said this should make you sleep like a baby.
The next thing I remember was mummy standing next to my bed waking me up ,thats when I realised the back of my nightie was wet and so was the bed By my expression mummy knew something was wrong I could feel a tear running down my cheek as I realised I had wet myself .Mummy wiped it away and in a very concerned voice said its ok sweetie its not your fault little boys and girls have accidents and besides it was my fault you would never have woken up to go to the toilet after taking that sleeping pill ,but it has pointed out a problem .Whats that I mumbled .Dont worry mummy will sort it she said come on lets get you in the bath and see if you can be the "Princess of the county".
mummy ran the bath and put some bath oil in the water that smelt like fresh flowers and made the water soft.She undressed me and I stepped in and slid down in to the warm water ,"you have a little soak" she said "I will change your sheets and start the washing machine by which time, if you like I will come and wash you"."Yes please" I said suddenly forgeting about my little accident .I lay back in the bath wondering how the day would go and secretly wishing I would win .Mummy jolted me back to reality by saying what are you smiling about little girl? Nothing I replied giggling to myself as she started to sponge my back and arms ."Time to get out "she said as she wiped the soap from my face "mummy will wrap you in a towel and you can go to my bedroom and I will dress you" she said.I was enjoying mummy dressing and undressing me. I hope this never changes I thought as I went into her bedroom.Are you very excited mummy said as she came through the door ,Yes mummy I can hardly stand still I am so excited I replied .Lets make sure you are properly dried she said as she rubbed the towel through my hair .Now she said I dont want you to say anything while I am dressing you because I have a reason for what I am doing and I will explain after you are dressed just trust me ok ! Ok I answered .First I want you to lie on the bed for me and lift up your legs ,as I did this she slipped a white fluffy nappy under my bottom.Seeing the look on my face she put her finger in front of her lips and said"shhhh! trust me."I relaxed my legs and let the soft toweling envelop my hips She pinned it tightly around my waist with pretty yellow nappy pins with ducks on them.Then taking me by the hands she sat me up and stood me on the floor ,Lift one leg for mummy she said as she slipped a pair of plastic pants over my nappy ,That will stop any leaks she said giving me a love tap on the bum .Over the top of the plastic pants she put a pair of knee length panties that ha d ruffles on the back and all down the legs to the knee.They seemed to pull the nappy tight onto my body and felt surprisingly comfortable .So what do you think so far mummy said as she walked over to the wardrobre where the bag from the dry cleaners was hanging .Am I being punished and made to wear a nappy because I wet my bed? I asked .No silly girl. I told you I would explain ,because you will be in this outfit all day and as you know showground toilets are not the cleanest this will save you from worrying and when you need too I will change you the way I used to when you were a baby which I think you still are she quickly added.Now lets get you into your dress which by the way is themed from " Mary had a little lamb".With that she opened the bag and pulled out a full length baby blue dress with a pinafore in white with lace trim to go over the top which I anxiously put on Mummy did up the buttons on the back and tied the pinafore with a big bow at the back.I then sat on the edge of the bed while mummy put on my knee high white socks and white shoes .Stand up she said let me brush your hair so I can tie the bonnet on which she did with a big bow under my chin .She pulled lots of curls from under it and let them fall on my face how adorable she said steering me to the full length mirror, I looked and almost wet myself from excitement.Stairing back at me was a very pretty girl who I knew was me but didnt recognise.I sat back on the edge of the bed and watched while mummy got dressed ,she sprayed her best perfume on her neck and wrists and gently leaned over and did the same to me saying mummys little girl should smell pretty like mummy and kissed me softly on the neck.I realised when I started to walk to the car that wearing a nappy made me walk like a baby a sort of waddle and I wondered if anyone would notice and say anything.
Before I knew it we were on our way to the fair.and that thought disappeared .When we arrived mummy went to confirm my entry for the competiton and that done we wandered of to find Stephanie and her mum.It didnt take much to find them they seemed to be the centre of attention at the judges table with Stephanie swanning about in a alice in wonderland costume. I must say she was very pretty and I realised she would probably win.Anyway I didnt really mind if she did win I was after all said and done a" boy" although lately I was starting to wish otherwise.Mummy introduced me, and Stephanie looked me up and down and giggled to her mum that I walked funny just like a baby.Iwas feeling so good I didnt take any notice and we all went to the main arena for the judging .There was about twenty girls in our age bracket and they all looked fabulous ,mummy gave me a good luck kiss and we all lined up to parade in front of the judges .when the parade started I noticed a couple of the other girls waddling which made me smile because I knew they would be wearing nappies as well.The judges talked for a while and then the head judge walked up on stage and said in a very deep voice how hard it was to judge so many pretty girls but there could only be one winner and the winner is......Everyone waited in silence .I thought for sure if it wasnt Stephanie it would be one of the other girls .the pause seemed to last for ever then he said again the winner is ....Madeline .I started to look around to see who this girl was when I heard Stephanie say you won go over to the judge ,"What" I said, and then it registered thats me Madeline I let out this squeel(I was sure could be heard in the next County) the excitement made my bladder let go and I felt warm liquid run into my nappy as I waddled up to the judge Mummy was called from the audience to accept my prize which was a three hundred dollar clothing voucher .The judge bent forward and kissed me on the cheek and wished me luck at any future events. Mummy cuddled me and kept repeating I cant believe it I cant believe my little girl is the "Princess of the County" .The local newspaper took a photo of mummy hugging me as I held my trophy.
Stephanie and her mum were not to pleased with the outcome but by this time mummy had forgotten about them and was only interested in me.all the excitement had not only made me lose control of my bladder but also my tummy began to cramp and I think I may have had another accident.Mummy finished saying goodbye to people and we headed for the car .Mummy I said as we were walking through the car park I think I may have had an accident in my nappy .She stopped and gave me a big cuddle thats why you are wearing one she said "I told you little girls have accidents"
By the time we got home it was quite late and way past my bedtime Mummy straight away took off my dress and laying me on the bed she said did you enjoy yourself today Maddie "Oh yes lots and lots" I said excitedly,"I wish today would never end" ."Thats nice you will always remember a day like today but tomorrow back to normal I guess" she said sadly ."Mummy can I ask you something"? I said Of course you can ask away .Well I said when I first dressed up as Maddie I liked doing it because it made you smile but now I want to be Maddie all the time I wont be happy if I have to go back to being a boy I thought you would have realised that when I asked if I could be your little girl.
Mummy replied saying Remember when I said I wanted you to not only be my little girl but mummys baby girl .I really wanted to go back to when you were a baby and start all over but that wouldnt be fair on you taking you out of school putting you back in baby clothes and turning you into my baby girl . "maybe If you like you could try it for the rest of the weekend and see if you really are mummys little baby girl." she said. I didnt even give mummy time to finish the sentence before I said"yes yes can I please" .Mummy smiled and started to take off my dirty nappy ,after she cleaned me up and put a fresh one on she took me by the hand and led me to the spare room inside there was a cot and a change table and all kinds of baby items .Tomorrow all this is going in your bedroom she said and your bed can go in the spare room then we will have a nursery .go jump in your big bed for the last time ,I will come tuck you in soon .I got into bed and waited Mummy came in a while later with a baby bottle in her hand ,look what mummys got she said "its maddies bottie" she put the teat in my mouth and I began to suck the warm milk as if drinking from a baby bottle was quite normal ,mummy lifted my hand and laid the bottle on the pillow with me holding it she then pinned a dummy to my nightie on a ribbon long enough for me to get the dummy in my mouth .There you go she said all ready for sleepies ,now where is dolly she said as she pretended to look around ,here she is she said as she tucked her into bed next to me.
As i drifted of f to sleep I knew not only had mummys dream come true but so had mine and hopefully i would be mummys little princess forever ....
THE END...
