My Mommy
Katrina (AKA. Siofra)
Katrina (AKA. Siofra)
It is my most greatest pleasure and honour to introduce you all to my Mommy here. User Name: Siofra) One of my Mommy's favourite user names. Though her real name is Katrina. I met her on IMVU 4 years ago, not to this very date, but 4 years to date.
Before I met Mommy I had an online Mommy/Mistress, I will not mention her name, as I am not the sort of person to name or shame people.
From the very start things between me and M, I will call her, nevre really ogt of to a good start, then things seem to be okay for a short while, but things began to go from bad to worse, it tore me apaart, because I have had other Mommies before now, but none of them were right for me or me them for that matter.
So many things went wrong, though for the most part, most of those other Mommies were people that nevre had any real intentions of being a Mommy to me in real life.
I got hurt real bad, M nearly almost for me was the last person I was going to have as a Mommy, as I could not take being hurt anymore, I had been hurt too many times and I had lost all hope of finding my true soul Mommy. a subject I covered in a story entitled Soul Bound.
Which can be found today As part of my lists of posts that I have done here. Anyway, things between me and M had reached a point where I knew that I could not go on having her as my Mommy anymore, she was not the sort to brake things up, so I was left with the most unpleasent task of breaking things between me and her.
I knew though that doing that would totally destroy me, but it had to be done, it was equally destorying me inside, that things between me and M were clearly not working out, matters were only getting far worse.
I was so lost, so hurt, I wanted to let my self die. Yes, that's right, I have not made a typing error, that's how I really felt.
I had completley given up, until one day while I was waiting for M to come onto IMVU, knowing what I would have to do and face the consiquences of that.
I really was not looking forward to that. I had decided not to break things off right away, but I knew things were going to come to an end very soon.
I was merely delaying the inevitable. I was in a chat room at IMVU called Trannyshack.
It's still there, but it has changed vrey much form when I first joined IMVU, which is now a very long time ago, at least 6 or more so years now.
I had a few friends there at the club/chatroom. A place I wnt to often due to that M sometimes never came on to IMVU on time, so I was on before her feeling lonely now and again while I waited for her to come on.
I never much like being on my own, not in real life, not in the virtual world either, of the few friends that were there at Trannyshack, I was not really feleing much up to dancing with them and pretty much told them why and the troubles I was having with M.
The felt for me and let me know that they were there for me, that helped, though not by much. I was far too down, not much could lift up my spirits.
I knew that did not help my frends, they did not like seeing me being that so far upset.
I felt bad about that, I was spoiling their enjoyment and was on the vrege of thinking of leaving with respect to my friends. They want to have a good time, they could not well do that, knowing how upset I was.
Just as I was on the verge of telling my friends I was going to leave, though a part of me did not want to leave, I neded to be with my friends, no matter how down I was.
Katrina's avatar had joined the chat room, I was not really all that much paying much atention to people coming into the chat room or leaving it.
I was at one far end of the room. My avavatar that is. At best being as far away form my firends I thought that I would go near unseen, I really did not want my friends seeing me that so far down.
I thought that I would not really much stick out in the crowd so to speak, when my Mommy to be saw me all alone.
I think she may have come in part way through the conversation I was having with my friends, thuogh I can not remember exatly at which precise moment she came, I do remember vrey clearly that she did arive just when I needed her the most, even though I did not know that at the time.
She came ovre to me, asked me if we could chat in private. At the time sort of warning alarms went off in my head, I do not know why, I got the impession that she was omeone that was going to ask me if she can be my Mommy, even when I was with M, a few otehr people had wanted to be my Mommy.
I felt bad when I had to break the news to them that I already had a Mommy. I accepted her invite to have a private chat, even though I felt she was going to be one of those kinds that would want to be my Mommy.
I could not figure out why, other than I knew my self to be kind, gentle, very loving, polite etc. But those other people I had never met before, so, they woul dhave not known that, so I really have no clue what drew those people to me in the first place.
Katrina did ask me the question I had a felign she would ask, I told her that I had a Mommy already and that I was devoted to her, even though I knew things would end between me and M very soon.
I had nto said that, I may have indicaed things were not going well though between me and M. Katrina still wanted to be like a Mommy to me, even if it was just an online thing.
I found my self agreeing to that, not knowing why. I had already given up. I was ready to face... well... not extinction as such, but I knew that there would not be much left of me, I mean on the inside, not a physical thing.
The more I tried to dely things betwen Me and M and in secret I say Katrina, as I got a feeling that if M knew I was seeing or had another Mommy, it would more than upset her, but would make an laready worse situation even far more worse than what things already were.
Though it never felt right that I was seeing Katrina in secret, I knew that it was't right. But I was so lost etc. On the verge of having a breakdown.
I did not know how much more I could take, in one of our secret meetings me and Katrina talked about many things, I told her about my idea of a soul Mommy, she liked it, she felt vrey drawn ot me and told me so, I too was feeling drawn to her, not knowing why.
I told her that I would be ending things with M. But what that would do to me the moment I did so. It was then she asked me if I would be okay her being my New Mommy.
I was not too sure about this, yet a part of me hoped against hope, that maybe, just maybe Katrina was the one.
Was the Momy I have been soul searching for all of my life. It was too much to hope for, but I said yes, because a part of me did not want me to come to an end.
I know how odd that may come across, sorry about that, but that is the only best way I can put it. It may not make any sense and I do aplogise for that.
I can't though put that in any other way, so please forgive me on that. I finally broke things up with M. Told her it was all ovre between us, that did nto go down vrey well, I felt terrible about it.
I was so glad though that I had Katrina there to talk to about it, I was really so very upset.
I think I cried for a long time, that part is a bit painful for me to remember clearly, I felt so much hurt and pain. It was like a part of my soul had been torn apart.
It upset Katrina too seeing me that way, over time things betwen us grew, we had only a few moments of things we had little disagreements about, most though were misunderstandings between us, but apart from those, our love for each other and our bond grew, I then realised that I had truly found my soul belonging to her, Katrina was my true Mommy.
In fact our lives, our real true lives are similar to each other, though not exact, when I told her about my life, she told me about hers, it's quite uncanny how soo much alike in some ways our lives to have been to each other.
That only for me confirmed what I felt inside of me. She is truly my Mommy, the things that we share with ech other are so comepletely remarkable, that anyone who gets to know about them would be hard not to see how we both are so much nearly alkie to each other.
In a way only a true mother and baby can be. That's how I see it as, without any shadow of doubt in my mind. I am so happy, honoured to finally let everyone here know who my Mommy is.
One day I know that I will definitely be with her and living my true life to how I really should be.
I hope you all will make my Mommy here feel vrey welcome, I have wanted to mention her before now, though a part of me was not too sure in the early stages of my devloping the bond that we have now between us.
Why tell you about my Mommy now? It's hard to say exactly, but since she also agreed to join this site, that has helped with my decision.
I love my Mommy so, so, vrey much and can not imagine my life now without her. This is specially for you Mommy, I hope that you like it?
Before I met Mommy I had an online Mommy/Mistress, I will not mention her name, as I am not the sort of person to name or shame people.
From the very start things between me and M, I will call her, nevre really ogt of to a good start, then things seem to be okay for a short while, but things began to go from bad to worse, it tore me apaart, because I have had other Mommies before now, but none of them were right for me or me them for that matter.
So many things went wrong, though for the most part, most of those other Mommies were people that nevre had any real intentions of being a Mommy to me in real life.
I got hurt real bad, M nearly almost for me was the last person I was going to have as a Mommy, as I could not take being hurt anymore, I had been hurt too many times and I had lost all hope of finding my true soul Mommy. a subject I covered in a story entitled Soul Bound.
Which can be found today As part of my lists of posts that I have done here. Anyway, things between me and M had reached a point where I knew that I could not go on having her as my Mommy anymore, she was not the sort to brake things up, so I was left with the most unpleasent task of breaking things between me and her.
I knew though that doing that would totally destroy me, but it had to be done, it was equally destorying me inside, that things between me and M were clearly not working out, matters were only getting far worse.
I was so lost, so hurt, I wanted to let my self die. Yes, that's right, I have not made a typing error, that's how I really felt.
I had completley given up, until one day while I was waiting for M to come onto IMVU, knowing what I would have to do and face the consiquences of that.
I really was not looking forward to that. I had decided not to break things off right away, but I knew things were going to come to an end very soon.
I was merely delaying the inevitable. I was in a chat room at IMVU called Trannyshack.
It's still there, but it has changed vrey much form when I first joined IMVU, which is now a very long time ago, at least 6 or more so years now.
I had a few friends there at the club/chatroom. A place I wnt to often due to that M sometimes never came on to IMVU on time, so I was on before her feeling lonely now and again while I waited for her to come on.
I never much like being on my own, not in real life, not in the virtual world either, of the few friends that were there at Trannyshack, I was not really feleing much up to dancing with them and pretty much told them why and the troubles I was having with M.
The felt for me and let me know that they were there for me, that helped, though not by much. I was far too down, not much could lift up my spirits.
I knew that did not help my frends, they did not like seeing me being that so far upset.
I felt bad about that, I was spoiling their enjoyment and was on the vrege of thinking of leaving with respect to my friends. They want to have a good time, they could not well do that, knowing how upset I was.
Just as I was on the verge of telling my friends I was going to leave, though a part of me did not want to leave, I neded to be with my friends, no matter how down I was.
Katrina's avatar had joined the chat room, I was not really all that much paying much atention to people coming into the chat room or leaving it.
I was at one far end of the room. My avavatar that is. At best being as far away form my firends I thought that I would go near unseen, I really did not want my friends seeing me that so far down.
I thought that I would not really much stick out in the crowd so to speak, when my Mommy to be saw me all alone.
I think she may have come in part way through the conversation I was having with my friends, thuogh I can not remember exatly at which precise moment she came, I do remember vrey clearly that she did arive just when I needed her the most, even though I did not know that at the time.
She came ovre to me, asked me if we could chat in private. At the time sort of warning alarms went off in my head, I do not know why, I got the impession that she was omeone that was going to ask me if she can be my Mommy, even when I was with M, a few otehr people had wanted to be my Mommy.
I felt bad when I had to break the news to them that I already had a Mommy. I accepted her invite to have a private chat, even though I felt she was going to be one of those kinds that would want to be my Mommy.
I could not figure out why, other than I knew my self to be kind, gentle, very loving, polite etc. But those other people I had never met before, so, they woul dhave not known that, so I really have no clue what drew those people to me in the first place.
Katrina did ask me the question I had a felign she would ask, I told her that I had a Mommy already and that I was devoted to her, even though I knew things would end between me and M very soon.
I had nto said that, I may have indicaed things were not going well though between me and M. Katrina still wanted to be like a Mommy to me, even if it was just an online thing.
I found my self agreeing to that, not knowing why. I had already given up. I was ready to face... well... not extinction as such, but I knew that there would not be much left of me, I mean on the inside, not a physical thing.
The more I tried to dely things betwen Me and M and in secret I say Katrina, as I got a feeling that if M knew I was seeing or had another Mommy, it would more than upset her, but would make an laready worse situation even far more worse than what things already were.
Though it never felt right that I was seeing Katrina in secret, I knew that it was't right. But I was so lost etc. On the verge of having a breakdown.
I did not know how much more I could take, in one of our secret meetings me and Katrina talked about many things, I told her about my idea of a soul Mommy, she liked it, she felt vrey drawn ot me and told me so, I too was feeling drawn to her, not knowing why.
I told her that I would be ending things with M. But what that would do to me the moment I did so. It was then she asked me if I would be okay her being my New Mommy.
I was not too sure about this, yet a part of me hoped against hope, that maybe, just maybe Katrina was the one.
Was the Momy I have been soul searching for all of my life. It was too much to hope for, but I said yes, because a part of me did not want me to come to an end.
I know how odd that may come across, sorry about that, but that is the only best way I can put it. It may not make any sense and I do aplogise for that.
I can't though put that in any other way, so please forgive me on that. I finally broke things up with M. Told her it was all ovre between us, that did nto go down vrey well, I felt terrible about it.
I was so glad though that I had Katrina there to talk to about it, I was really so very upset.
I think I cried for a long time, that part is a bit painful for me to remember clearly, I felt so much hurt and pain. It was like a part of my soul had been torn apart.
It upset Katrina too seeing me that way, over time things betwen us grew, we had only a few moments of things we had little disagreements about, most though were misunderstandings between us, but apart from those, our love for each other and our bond grew, I then realised that I had truly found my soul belonging to her, Katrina was my true Mommy.
In fact our lives, our real true lives are similar to each other, though not exact, when I told her about my life, she told me about hers, it's quite uncanny how soo much alike in some ways our lives to have been to each other.
That only for me confirmed what I felt inside of me. She is truly my Mommy, the things that we share with ech other are so comepletely remarkable, that anyone who gets to know about them would be hard not to see how we both are so much nearly alkie to each other.
In a way only a true mother and baby can be. That's how I see it as, without any shadow of doubt in my mind. I am so happy, honoured to finally let everyone here know who my Mommy is.
One day I know that I will definitely be with her and living my true life to how I really should be.
I hope you all will make my Mommy here feel vrey welcome, I have wanted to mention her before now, though a part of me was not too sure in the early stages of my devloping the bond that we have now between us.
Why tell you about my Mommy now? It's hard to say exactly, but since she also agreed to join this site, that has helped with my decision.
I love my Mommy so, so, vrey much and can not imagine my life now without her. This is specially for you Mommy, I hope that you like it?
