When I entered the store however my heart felt like it skipped a beat. I thought to myself ‘was I actually going to do this’. It felt so surreal. I could easily imagine doing this; yet actually preforming the act was terrifying. I decided to go through the less populated side of the aisle as I convinced myself that that was less likely to garner suspicion. Luckily there were magazines on the other side of the aisle so I didn’t look like a total creep. When I actually got into the aisle; I went into ecstasy. I was baffled by the assortment of items available from diapers, to bottles, to pacifiers, to powder, and wipes. I didn’t know where to start.
I felt utterly embarrassed when a toddler or small child would walk through the aisle with their mommy. The inside feeling that they were more mature that me boiled inside my mind. That while they were fully potty trained a still needed a diaper. That they could use big kid glasses I couldn’t be trusted not to spill. That while these toddlers had been weaned, I still needed to suckle a teat. I felt so utterly humiliated (in a bad, somehow slightly good way).
In the end I had gotten baby bottles, pacifiers, and baby powder. I held off on getting diapers at the store because I didn’t wish to make it seem too obvious of my intent. I felt coerced into getting some other utterly useless things so that I didn’t feel too embarrassed at the checkout. When checking out I chose a self-checkout line as it would involve the least amount of physical contact with other people. I was very afraid of an item not scanning properly and the assistance requested sign going off. However I was so lucky that did not happen. A baggage girl came over to put everything in the bag. She was rather good looking from what I recall but I tried to avoid eye contact and keep my distance as I am sure if I looked her in the eye I might have blushed. As soon as I left the premises I put everything in my bag and went back home.
Next I went to the CVS to purchase the adult diapers. This store was three times the distance as the grocery store. Due to the awkwardness of bringing this package of diapers home; I once again opted for the drawstring bag. When I got Io the store I was extremely nervous. If I obviously didn’t have a plastic purchase bag with me, I thought people would think I was shoplifting. I circled the store several times. Partly to make sure no one I knew was there, and partly because I was so afraid of getting the item ringed up at the register. I finally mustered the courage. I had my alibi ready if I was questioned. I waited for there to be no line at the cashier and proceeded. I was terrified. I was glad that I wasn’t shaking when handing the money. As soon as I got my receipt I proceeded to exit immediately.
Knowing that the package was all too visible I proceeded to try and get the package of diapers inside the drawstring bag. I eventually had to force it in due to the sheer size of it. When it was all in I put it on my back and began to walk back. It was really bulky you could clearly see the shape of the package. Luckily it was impossible to see what was inside. On the way back I was overly cautious. Fearing every passing car was someone I knew. I tried to stay as far away from other pedestrians as possible. By the time I got into the last 400 meters I was walking very fast. I drew a sigh of relief when approaching the house, and was all too thankful when I was safely back inside my home.
The next thing I did was secure the house and make sure it was as private as possible. I closed all the blinds, let loose all the curtains, and made sure every door was locked. I next proceeded to bring the diapers upstairs. I then took a shower to get all the sweat and grime off my body. While in the shower I then proceeded to shave my butt and pubic area. I also shaved the top of my thighs but could not go away for fear of being discovered. After the shower I laid down on a changing towel and opened the container of baby powder. The talcum powder acted like an aphrodisiac to me. I immediately got hard as a rock. I had to put a cooling pack on my sissy clit just to get it limp. As I rode up the diaper it was an unusual feeling. I had not felt a similar sensation for many years. I proceeded to the bathroom where I just gawked at myself. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. It was me standing there naked in a diaper. I felt as though I was only a year old. I looked at felt my diaper as a cushion. The experience was very surreal.
I went downstairs again still in disbelief at what I was wearing. I decided that I might as well go ‘full baby’ I opened the fridge where I had stored two bottles of orange juice. There they were two baby bottles just casually in the fridge as if it was daily routine. It honestly made me think that there was an actual baby in the house. I took one out and turned on the TV. I decided since I was already dressed as a baby I should watch baby TV as well. As it was in the evening and Disney channel, cartoon network, and nick stuck to their older audience. I had to turn to sprout; the 24 hour baby and small child channel. I tried to use my diaper to complete the experience but nothing was happening (this was before I read the entire article on sissy kiss on how to accomplish this).
I decided to give myself an enema. Anticipating the rapid increase of liquid I decided to triple up my diapers. I finally let go and man did it feel good. After I was completely empty I decided to head off to bed. As the third diaper hadn’t even been touched I decided that I could probably sleep in this. I decided to sleep in my parent’s bed as it was bigger and more comfortable than mine. I found it difficult to sleep as my diaper region was very warm. This was from lack of fresh air down there; however I eventually fell to sleep with a pacifier in my mouth and a bottle at my side.
The next morning I woke up I initially smelled under the covers to see if it had that poopy diaper nursery aroma and it did. I was so happy it smelled as though I should be in a nursery. I continued playing around that evening. Including playing video games in them. I lastly tried on some of my sisters outfits. From skirts to dresses to pants, I felt so naughty wearing these articles of clothing with the diaper.
The final day was when my parents would return. I threw away all evidence from the diapers to all the accessories. It felt very wasteful I only had used up one quarter of the total diapers purchased. I had thought of keeping one or two of the diapers in a hiding spot, yet I feared what my parents may have done to me if they had found out my secret. I aired out the mattress cover, and I burnt and flushed all receipts regarding the purchase of any of the items. I also threw out all diapers and put them in a two layer bag.
That was probably the most memorable weekend that I have been a part of. It was extremely scary yet very satisfying.
