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Neko_Girlie

Posted on September 24th, 2010 ~ 3:22 am

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I am looking for some advice and I'm sure you girls can help me,

I am very open with my mistress, I hide nothing from her. Before I moved in with her she knew all of my deepest secrets and fantasies, that I liked to dress up, I wanted to try anal (and I love it) and that I sometimes like to wear diapers and be treated like a baby. At the time I had not tried any of these things and so they were just fantasies, I didn't even know if I would like them. When she asked if I was gay or bi because of the dressing and anal fantasies I told her no (she would never judge me if I was she just wanted to know) At the time I told her the truth. As a guy I have never been attracted to another guy, or wanted to be with another guy.

Now I've been able to explore my fantasies more, I have come to accept the fact that I am truly a sissy with a love for all things feminine. It no longer bothers me that I wear women's clothing, it actually bothers me when I have to go long periods of time without wearing women's clothes. But now that I have been able to release and embrace my female side I'm starting to have new fantasies...

When I am in a feminine state of mind, and horny, (at the age of 20 that is always *giggles*) I have fantasies about being with other men, to hold a cock in my hand, to suck on it, and even get fucked by another man, or even a T-Girl. Captions of sissies eating cock turn me on and I feel like I want to be one of those sissies. however anytime I pleasure myself to the thought of any of that I immediately feel shame and tell myself that that is not who I truly am.

The other thing that bothers me is that as a guy I am actually very selective about who I will be in a relationship with, I don't just want to get in every girl's skirt and sex is more than physical pleasure. But as a female I can't help but want to be a total slut. To be some guys fucktoy for a night...it's a complete opposite of my male side.

I don't know if that is what I truly want, or is it a result of being horny?

My second problem comes with telling my mistress, I don't want to hide anything from her, but I don't want to tell her and her think that I have been hiding these feeling from her all along and get angry with me. I truly have not been hiding these feeling from her, I have only recently started to have them. How do I tell her?

Any advice?

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littlemissalexis

Posted September 24th, 2010 ~ 4:05 am

Just tell her like that she will probably understand. It is very common for fantasies, fetishes, interests to grow.

The part about being a gentleman as a male and slut as a girl sounds pretty common too. It seems when people think what if I was the other gender that usually make them self more sexual active and usually opposite of the current image.

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emilygielen

Posted September 24th, 2010 ~ 7:59 am

Just told her like you told us... Use these words and she'll understand!

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Neko_Girlie

Posted September 26th, 2010 ~ 11:29 pm

Thanks girls, I will tell her just the way I told you. It's funny, even though we are open and honest with each other I still can't build up the courage to tell her. I need to tell her soon though because it's bothering me not telling her and she can tell that something is on my mind. Sooner or later I'll have to tell her.

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