I've been reaching a point in my life where I find it too hard to keep myself under wraps as it were, where I need to let myself out to the outside world, at least a little bit. I've been considering for several weeks now rekindling friendship with a girl who was once my closest (and remains dearest in my heart) but have not communicated with in over a year, and not actually met or spoken to (other than by text) in considerably longer. Of everyone I know or have known I think I'd like her to be the first to know, and moreover I'd like to be her friend, and in proper touch again, because she seems to remain a wonderful person and she was one of the very few who really made me feel worthwhile (I have always had small circles of friends). So I'd love to get in touch with the purpose of telling her, but then every time I think about actually taking the steps to do so I back away, feeling guilty because she has a much better, happier life than when we were great friends and I would most likely be burdening her with the knowledge. We became estranged on account of my general problems (undiagnosed at the time but now known) and related self pity and I don't want to go down the same route again, but at the same time I almost feel like I owe it to her to show her the real me, the crossdressing, submissive, needy me. Its quite a conundrum, and so I'd love to hear from anyone who has gone through the same or has advice about the situation.
Hugs and kisses!