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A few weeks ago, I got online and chatted with a guy that was 2 years younger than me. He told me that he was a crossdresser, and that he was also gay. I myself am just a crossdresser, and am totally heterosexual.

As we began chatting, we figured out that we had alot in common, as far as interests, fetishes, etc. We agreed on nearly everything we talked about. At the end of the chat, he told me to imagine myself in whatever outfit I wanted. I agreed, and he asked if I would be willing to experiment, just to make sure. I agreed, thinking, what could it hurt?

He played it so well, I just melted in his arms. Everything he said hit me so hard. He was in control, and I could not stop it. I gave in to everything he said. I pleasured myself, just as he commanded me to...and then I went to bed.

I didn't think much of it at first, but now I am wondering what it means exactly? I know I am not attracted to men. I just wonder why I can't stop thinking about that night...I have tried numerous times to catch him in chatting once again, but I have failed.

Can anyone offer insight?
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SuzieBrave
Gays can be persuasive, I know.
Your probably confused because you cant categorize what happened there. I can't do that for you, but I too once was wondering if I was gay or if thinking about cocks can turn you gay etc...
After all, this is not the kind of stuff they teach you at school, right?

Anyway: After four years of crossdressing I still consider myself straight. ...Okay: and 30% bisexual.
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sissybabycortex
It can be kinda confusing. If you are indeed totaly heterosexual, then you may have just loved the idea of vulnerability. Its possible that you may just like that someone else has control, that you don't even need think but have someone know what you need. There are women out there who can offer that sence of security too. Personally, I have a girlfriend who I love and being able to be 100% open and my full self around her is very satisfying. Just know that gay or straight, no one should hide. Be who you are and the world will have that much more happiness in it. Anyone can be loved for who they are (sorry to sound preachy. Just a lot of negative things have been said this week :-\)
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Wannabe_Baby
I honestly don't think you need to worry too much. I think you might be naturally a bit more open to different things, being a crossdresser; I'm going to take a stab in the dark and say that you've seen pictures of other guys crossdressing online and quite liked them, right? Maybe not in a sexual way but you didn't mind looking. And in this case, you were just talking to someone who said things that pleased you; you were sexually pleased by some words on a screen. I don't think the sex of the person mattered.

It doesn't necessarily mean you're attracted to guys in real life. Everyone can push a few buttons of yours that stimulate your sexual desires. He appealed to your fantasies and you enjoyed it, just as you would if a girl did the same thing. If you saw a picture of a gorgeous naked girl on your computer screen next to a gorgeous naked guy, however, you might think differently. You'd stare at the one you were physically attracted to. In the chat? You were attracted to your fantasy.
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littlemissalexis
I think it more you are a submissive then anything. You could be straight but if master or mistress command you to suck a cock and you might would do it. But you won't seek it out on your own.

On the other hand it is possible the more and more you crossdress and try more things as a woman curiosity of being with a man can develop.


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hotpink4me
Wow...I tend to agree with alot of the posts that are here. I think I like the idea of someone being in control, someone to take all my cares away. It was just so relaxing to let someone else tell me all of my fantasies. I think I still love females, and no way am attracted to guys, but yes I have looked at pictures of others crossdressing, and I have enjoyed them. I am very confused...
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Marcie_me
I agree on the submission opinions. It was a new and enjoyable experience that you had with him and it allowed you to be in a role you normally aren't in. You liked this, even more since you dress in female clothing and having a less dominate personality.This doesn't make you gay, bi-sex, or any other term. It just means that you liked someone telling you what to do and you submitting to that. The fact that the master was gay or even just a male is only detail.
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Baby Bobby__
I think with a lot of sissies, the appeal of humiliation is a strong factor. For instance, while dressed as a girl/baby/sissy, the person may enjoy being humiliated in various different ways, usually by a woman (if they're hetrosexual). However, the woman might force the sissy to engage in some homosexual activity merely to humiliate him, which would also be a turn-on for the sissy.

Here's the dividing line--ask yourself these questions;

Do you want to have sex with men, both giving and receiving? Does the idea of kissing a man appeal to you? Do you find them sexually appealing?

If so, you're probably gay.

If you are excited by being forced to give them head or having them use you sexually but answered the above questions with no, you're probably not gay but have a fetish for humiliation.

Just my two cents...
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Flyff
From a gender studies class about men I took last year, one of the subjects we learned a lot about was pornography. A lot of heterosexual men actually find pornography a lot more attractive with another guy in it; not from bisexual preferences or anything, but from the fantasy of wanting to be that guy- being able to have sex with that girl. I'm guessing that if you feel no romantic attraction to men, then it's definitely just wanting to be controlled and looking at cross dressing is just a subconscious thrill of wanting to be that guy; think of action movies, no guy wants to have fun with Indiana Jones. They want to *be* Indiana Jones. Or sports; most guys would rather be the sports star than simply hang out with one.
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therunning21
wow some new perspectives. thanks
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LMPP
Baby Bobby seems to have the right idea with his Fetish answer.

QUOTE: "Do you want to have sex with men, both giving and receiving? Does the idea of kissing a man appeal to you? Do you find them sexually appealing? If so, you're probably gay.......NOPE, THAT GROSS!

If you are excited by being forced to give them head or having them use you sexually but answered the above questions with no, you're probably not gay but have a fetish for humiliation.

YEP, that would be me! humiliation boy....But I also like to fantasize about being the DOM and administer EXACTLY what I like done to myself.....about 60/40, with about 60% me being sissybaby.

So what the heck does THAT mean?

I'm married and she understands me and sometimes plays mommy, she likes being dominated too but always flips it around cuz by nature she is dominant.
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LMPP
Baby Anna, what do you have plugged into poor teddy's bottom?.....heehee

Oh My : )
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Sweetlilbabygirl
It sounds like you just may enjoy being controlled as others have pointed out.
I'd like to point out however that I once fealt as you and thought of myself as straight hetero and just a crossdresser. However, over the years, I found myself wanting to become more and more feminine and eventually a woman. With that, came a desire to become more and more submissive, and yes,, even desires to be with a man. After struggling with this for many years I decided to transition and with the hormone therapy and all else,, I found myself, more and more attracted to men. Now I'm not saying the hormones did this,, that's impossible. But I do believe it helped lower some of my inhibitions and views about what was acceptable to me and release some of the deep hidden desires I had buried because I was told by society that it was wrong. And to just be happy with what I was becoming. Now I am happily bi because I am still attracted to women as well. My point being, it is only you who knows what you want. And you will only discover your true self and desires after time and that your views may change over time. Be happy with yourself, however it turns out in the end.
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dusty
It could be all the above as others have siad, also the feeling of being relaxed with someone and having so many tings in common can be very freeing and relaxing.

Don't read too much into it.
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