over the last two years i've been sissified to the point where i wear bra and panties everyday, and sometimes i wear a bra 24/7. in the category of 'be careful what you wish for' i never thought when i started that i'd ever get used to wearing a bra. two weeks in, i was thinking of asking to give it up, but about that time i came to accept it as something i had to wear, just like all girls. now, i can't NOT wear a bra. on the VERY rare occasions i haven't worn one, it just feels TOO weird to be without one, and i need to put one on.
about the same time i had to start 'tucking' myself'. that was wildly uncomfortable at first, but within a month, i realized that 'tucked' was now my 'natural' state and i can now go to the bathroom, sitting of course, with no issues. while i still use a men's room, i have to use a stall. i don't even see a urinal, now, as an option. if i have to go, and all the stalls are occupied, i have to leave and wait. and -i- don't "go to the bathroom". i have to say "i have to go potty." or "i'll BRB, potty." i'm so conditioned to that now, that i can't recall the last time i used the word 'bathroom' or 'toilet' in my speech. it's SO embarrassing in a group of adults to have to say that.
she'd like more ideas on how to sissify my speech more.
in some ways it gets worse. believe it or not, mistress has accomplished all this without any sort of chastity device. between the tucking, and general verbal humiliation, i rarely even see my penis. my crotch is always smooth when i wear slacks, as good as any woman's. she allows me to masturbate, but absolutely NO STROKING like a man, and she's conditioned me to this point with adding 'just one more thing' in my ability to do so. at first it started off as just rubbing my WLT [Worthless Little Thing] so i could make my cummies. but then she added the constraint of having to rub it, push on it, and squeeze it through panties. more and more getting me to masturbate like a woman does. when i was stroking like a man, my orgasms on a scale of 0 - 5 were at least 4 - 5, very consistently. i could 'shoot one off' just like any guy, and i achieved some '5's' when i started rubbing. when she added the panties over time the orgasms dropped to 3's. then she added the constraint i could only do it through a nightgown AND panties. now the 3's became less intense. for the last several months, i've only been allowed to play with myself through a nightgown, panties, and a sanitary napkin. the quality is dropped to steady '1's' and i no longer 'shoot a load'. worse i don't even get hard any more. i can get excited, and still have an orgasm but my WLT at BEST is semihard and i don't 'shoot' any more... i dribble.... into my pad. she has me so conditioned that i can play with myself through panties and nightgown for 30 minutes and only produce at best a few drops of pre-cum, but if she allows me to get a pad, i'll make my 'dribblies' in just a few minutes. i barely recall what it's like to have an erection.
speaking of pads, i have a period every month, and i was forced to actually sign up for an account at 'mymonthlycycles'. i have to have the email alerts, and of course buy my own pads. so far i've logged just over 24 periods.
i've stopped seeing women as sex objects. somewhere along the line, i realized i can look at mountains of porn and not produce a drop of anything. if i see a beautiful woman, i'm more likely to notice her hairstyle or outfit or shoes before i notice how 'hot' she is. i don't look at breasts with anymore interest than another woman would view a pair. when i talk to women [and my own hair is usually up 'by request'] in a floral barrette or some such], and i'm wearing women's jeans, i'll say something like "CUTE shoes!" or comment on their outfit or accessories. i think i automatically friend-zone myself every time.
Mistress is considering transitioning me to diapers, for my 'dribblies', and for added humiliation. she's joked about 'no more worries about bathroom availability', implying 24/7.
so now that i've made this, our first public declaration of my sissification, public as she wants, i need to ask for suggestions on how to proceed in general, or how to intensify any of the above mentioned topics. we'll post again letting you know what she's decided to use, and thank you mommies if you decide to help as well.
