...since i was a little kid i have always had a deep passion for girly thing....like in an expressive way...Like i feel butterfly's in my stomach when i think about it because i have this desire to express my self through pretty and cute things.... But i never ever did anything with girly stuff... I stuck with my boyish ways...(and im not saying that like its a bad thing. I don't hate being a boy i have lots of fun doing guy activity's so im completely cool with it i even happen to be a computer nerd and car wiz. ). I hid this side of me for the longest time since i was a little boy....But it always stayed there in my head.... and yes Hello Kitty was one of the biggest factors lol (SHE IS SO FUCKING COOL!! ALONG WITH CHOCOCAT!! ^_^)
ANYWAY LOL Fast forwarding here....Im 20 years old now and i have been dating this girl for a year and some months now. She is fucking awesome i tell you...We are perfect for each other and are very happy together. ^_^. She as well has had an obsession with hello kitty from a young age but of course being a girl she actually shows it. She has the whole bed set for hello kitty and collects the little plushy's and anything she finds in stores lol
About a week ago i started to think to my self about my inner girlish ways and got a little depressed because it has been such a long time that i have been holding it in....I decided to start bringing it out a little bit starting with hello kitty....I was with her in hot topic and out of impulse i decided to buy this really cook Hello Kitty Hat. It has the ears and a red bow on it and it looks like hello kitty is actually eating my head when i wear it lmao XD. I wore the hat around her and she was somewhat surprised but she is OK with it ^_^. I am in love with the hat and love wearing it. She says its cute that i like hello kitty and i even told her my self like 2 days ago that i think hello kitty is cute. : this is a very big step for me and im glad i took it : This whole past week i have been having a blast with her because suddenly i feel more connected with her. And i have actually been wanting to go shopping with her this week (I USUALLY DON'T LIKE TO SHOP! LOL) but I love it now because we go around looking for hello kitty related stuff and we have fun. Yesterday i bought a little hand sized chococat plushy (chococat is my second favorite) and i put him in my hoodie facing backwards so as i walk around the mall it stares at people behind me with its big eyes lmao.
I AM SO SORRY FOR WRITING SO MUCH LMAO. Well any who...Here i am now...I feel like a new person....I am still into guy stuff and straight. From time to time you may find me working on my truck or tinkering around on my computer, playing world of war craft or some other game. Just now i have a touch of girlishness ^_^
I am so happy about this new change in my life and this whole week i have been nothing but happy.(Its true that when you unleash something that you have kept inside you, you feel so much better and happier) And even now writing this letter i feel butterfly's in my stomach.... I decided to join sissy kiss after finding it because i want to be a part of the community and make new friends that share the same hobbies and i hope to make a lot of friends here ^_^.
I still have lots of steps to climb but im just really glad i finally took the first step.