Long story short:
Weared a piece of underwear one time
Female in me started to take over my body
Male in me was confused and wanted her away.
But, since last weekend something strange happened.
I had a dream about a girl I've never seen before.
She stood there when I was looking at myself in the mirror.
Suddenly she stept out of the mirror and hugged me.
She said "It's okay".
Then I woke up. Now I think that girl was my female part and she wanted to tell me something was okay.
So i thought about it for the rest of the day. And I kept hearing her voice in my head while I was thinking.
So, that night I had another dream. It was in a dark room with one table and 2 chairs.
On one chair she sat and said: Take a seat, Let's make a deal.
She: "We will live in this body together, but I let you trigger wich part gets the turn."
I nodded and when I did that the room became from Blue to Pink to White and I woked up in the middle of the night.
Since that night I can trigger who I wanna be! So that's kinda wonderful.
I'm happy with myself right now but I have to learn to deal with this permenently.
I hope I can live easily now. As long as my family and friends never find out, I don't think I can survive that.
Just wanted to share this with you!!