For a long time the idea of men becoming sissies, especially diapered baby sissies has been a secret interest of mine, something that I have never had much of a chance to explore other than through online stories, pics and videos. Now that I have come to a point in my life where I have more freedom to explore some of the more secret parts of my life I have decided this is one of the things I definitely want to try.
In my regular life I consider myself male, mostly straight although I am a bit bi-curious. I have never really had any major questions about my gender. That being said I there are some feminine things I have always enjoyed foremost among them is my love of panties. Whether it is seeing people wearing them, playing with them, or especially wearing them myself I just love them. I have also played around with cross-dressing as well (although when at home with no one around).
Another fetish of mine is adults in diapers, particularly girls, and transgendered men. I also like to wear them when I have the chance although not full time.
There are two main parts to my personality. My everyday male side witch is what I am most of the dime, and my sissy baby girl side that I have kept locked in the closet for most of my life.
My male side is very easy going I get along with most people quite easily. The only really sissy part of me when I'm this way is that I wear panties whenever I can. About the only time I don't is when I am going to be in situations where people are going to see my underwear, such as at the doctor or in a locker-room. Even then I will usually wear ones that look more unisex.
The part of me that I'm looking to explore here is my sissy baby side that I have kept locked up for so long. I will admit that side of me scares me a bit, because when I let it out I have almost no impulse control in the things I'm willing to do. When I am a sissy baby I crave being dominated and humiliated by women and with the poor impulse control that I have when I am in that head space I just know it is going to lead me into trouble.
That being said I am eager to begin exploring my sissy side at least in private and online for now, and I look forward to meeting people who can give me advice and support in my journey. I also hope that I get a chance to make friends with many great people, regardless of gender or sexual orientation.