Rising From The Ashes
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Hello everyone,
I would like to introduce myself. I am new to the forums here, though I have been around Sissy Kiss many times before. I would come here often, but fear would keep me away from actually coming into this forum. Not the fear of all of you in here, but rather the fear that I would have to finally face the truth of what I am. Nevertheless, I have had to face that truth, and I found the only thing scary about it was the reactions that others who did not understand, accept, or approve of me being my true self had. With that said, I will give a little background of when I began to notice there was something different about me.
I began to take notice of my being a female and not the male I see in the mirror every time I look into it around the age of 12. I just never could get into things the boys my age were into. I'd go out and play their games so as to fit in. For the most part, however, I found playing with dolls, playing dress-up, playing house, and doing various other girl things more comfortable and right to be doing. I'd even sneak whatever clothes of my younger sister's that would fit me and try them on when no one was around. It felt so right that I should wear that kind of clothing.
I had tried telling the woman who had adopted me about how I felt only to be laughed at and ridiculed for thinking such "ungodly" notions because "God" made me a boy and I shouldn't change what "He" made me. From that point on, I hid my little girl self by putting on veils (figuratively speaking) to put up a front of what society accepted a male to be like. I became quite the people-pleaser in that every time someone found something they did not feel was right for a male to be, I would change it until they were pleased with me just to avoid feeling like an outcast.
Over the years, I had gotten so bad off that even I had forgotten just who and what I really was. Now, I have begun to burn away all of that life to rise from the ashes as the female I am inside. My greatest wish is to be raised all over again as an infant girl, but knowing it is physically impossible, I can at least be an adult baby girl at heart and in my play. Take care and be safe always everyone.
Do not let what you see on the outside make you quick to judge what I am, for my male outer form is but a vessel that my female soul sails the tides of life within.




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Welcome to Sissy Kiss, nice to have you join us.
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SissyMichele
AWWWW Sweetie no one will ever jugde you here nor will mock you. We all share the same ideas tho we do things in diffrents ways. You will blossem inot the most prettyest flowers on this site belive me. BIG HUGS!!! Enjoy being you
Hugs And Kissess: SissyMichele. I'm a boy in body, but a wittle girl at heart!

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The flower pot of me:
Adam is the Pot. The outside shell but, nothing says you can put a ribbon around it hehe. Michele is the soil the center of which all my being is nurtured. Sissy Michele and Lil' Adam are the two flowers that blossems from them..

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Artist: Enigma / Album: The Cross of Changes / Song: Retun to Innocence, track 3. Very Powerful Message.
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Sweetie you are so welcome here. I know you will find people here that love you for who you are. Many of us have gone through similar things growing up and know how bad it hurts. Many BIG HUGS!!!
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"The Flowers of Friendship "
By Jennifer Funshine

~ Written For Amanda ~

A gentle butterfly flutters by her window
The subtle breeze kisses her cheek tenderly
Only Heaven can hear the words she whispers
Only angels have seen the color of her dreams

There's a special memory kept within a locket
Next to the ivory music chest upon her dresser
When that ballerina dances, Amanda remembers
How those dreams gave her the strength to be free

And believe...
In the flowers of friendship
Camellia, jasmine and daisy chains
And in my heart is sown only one wish
That she know the gift of love, unashamed

At it's core this earth we adore is loveless
People's compassion always plays hide and seek
Still, Amanda stands before these foolish judges
And with every word she expresses in her speech
The garden of her soul grows even more vibrantly

Rain like tears of joy descend upon supple twilight
Starry sky painted with majestic hues of rose-violet
Adorned in pink satin panties and tangerine sun dress
Amanda lovingly tends to her garden, full of happiness

So full of happiness...
In the flowers of friendship
Marigold, delphiniums and sage
Her love unfolds through the ages
She knows every one by their names.
With Much Love
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 AWWWW Sweetie no one will ever jugde you here nor will mock you. We all share the same ideas tho we do things in diffrents ways. You will blossem inot the most prettyest flowers on this site belive me. BIG HUGS!!! Enjoy being you  




Thank you most kindly. I am looking forward to being able to make many new friends on here and hopefully become the baby girl of my dreams. It's a comfort knowing there is a place I can come to just be me even if doing so in the real world is not as easy just yet. Thank all of you for your kind words and warm welcomes. It will be a pleasure getting to know all of you as I become more familiar with the forum and everything else. Much love to you all. Take care and be safe always everyone. (You'll see the last sentence very often as this is my customary parting words in just about everything I do. *giggles*)
Do not let what you see on the outside make you quick to judge what I am, for my male outer form is but a vessel that my female soul sails the tides of life within.




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Kawaii Pi
i know how you must feel... i've had many traumatizing experiences in my life (e.g. direct family and friend's deaths, sexually assaulted twice, diagnosed with multiple mental conditions, etc.) but i just want you to know that we love you and will always accept you. i'm hoping that we can talk more later and maybe even become good friends ^^

Forever sweet,

Kawaii Pi
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 i know how you must feel... i've had many traumatizing experiences in my life (e.g. direct family and friend's deaths, sexually assaulted twice, diagnosed with multiple mental conditions, etc.) but i just want you to know that we love you and will always accept you. i'm hoping that we can talk more later and maybe even become good friends ^^

Forever sweet,

Kawaii Pi  





I would love that very much. Thank you for your kindness. There's a lot I have been through in my life that made me wonder why. I've been taken from my real family, sexually assaulted at 3 by a foster mother, physically abused by a man who had adopted me with a woman who never treated like a son even to this day, homeless a few times, in jail for letting my temper get the best of me toward a man who was controlling me so much I felt trapped, having bad luck with getting jobs and keeping them, gone hungry many times, diagnosed with different mental disorders before they finally settled on bi-polar, and have had bad luck when it came to relationships. I honestly don't think there is anything other than death that I have not been through. To top that all off, being a bi pre-op male to female transsexual and an adult baby/diaper lover seems to have really forced me into isolation more than ever. I guess the one main thing I have learned from all of that is that whatever does not kill me, makes me all that much stronger, and I continue rising up because I know dreams really do come true and it has to get better for me now. How can it get any worse? Thank goodness there is a place for me here where I can let my hair down and dress in all my pretty dresses and just be the baby girl I know I am inside.
Do not let what you see on the outside make you quick to judge what I am, for my male outer form is but a vessel that my female soul sails the tides of life within.




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