I would like to introduce myself. I am new to the forums here, though I have been around Sissy Kiss many times before. I would come here often, but fear would keep me away from actually coming into this forum. Not the fear of all of you in here, but rather the fear that I would have to finally face the truth of what I am. Nevertheless, I have had to face that truth, and I found the only thing scary about it was the reactions that others who did not understand, accept, or approve of me being my true self had. With that said, I will give a little background of when I began to notice there was something different about me.
I began to take notice of my being a female and not the male I see in the mirror every time I look into it around the age of 12. I just never could get into things the boys my age were into. I'd go out and play their games so as to fit in. For the most part, however, I found playing with dolls, playing dress-up, playing house, and doing various other girl things more comfortable and right to be doing. I'd even sneak whatever clothes of my younger sister's that would fit me and try them on when no one was around. It felt so right that I should wear that kind of clothing.
I had tried telling the woman who had adopted me about how I felt only to be laughed at and ridiculed for thinking such "ungodly" notions because "God" made me a boy and I shouldn't change what "He" made me. From that point on, I hid my little girl self by putting on veils (figuratively speaking) to put up a front of what society accepted a male to be like. I became quite the people-pleaser in that every time someone found something they did not feel was right for a male to be, I would change it until they were pleased with me just to avoid feeling like an outcast.
Over the years, I had gotten so bad off that even I had forgotten just who and what I really was. Now, I have begun to burn away all of that life to rise from the ashes as the female I am inside. My greatest wish is to be raised all over again as an infant girl, but knowing it is physically impossible, I can at least be an adult baby girl at heart and in my play. Take care and be safe always everyone.