My name is Will, I am 24 yrs old and for my whole life, have been your typical heterosexual male. However, I've had a fascination with femininity since I can remember. My earliest memory goes back to being 5 or 6 yrs old..sitting across from me while riding in a limo was a woman in a fancy dress, wearing black pantyhose and high heels, who kept crossing her legs from side to side...I was so fixated...and this continued from there on out. Throughout my school years, I always found myself staring down at the legs of girls in pretty tights. When I was 15 and home alone sick from school one day, I finally decided to try on a pair of hose from my mothers dresser. And ever since, there has been a very slow and steady progression of wanting to become a woman. Of course pantyhose are just one of many examples of my love that developed for everything womanly. My interests include anything from being very girly to the grace and elegance of a mature woman . I would say even though I'm attracted to feminine women, It's probably more envious than anything.
So now that I'm in my mid-twenties, and over the college years, I've become increasingly more compelled to start embracing the woman inside me. I'm sure everyone in this forum knows how difficult it is in our society. It is very unfortunate that from the day we're born, "gender norms" are drilled into us everyday. Everyone is taught that man pursues and dates woman, they fall in love, marry and have children, all in that traditional 1950's sense. It's such a shame that the majority of people don't consider how broad and varied human sexuality can be, and that the spectrum is filled with so many different preferences. Even "man/woman", "straight/gay" is far too simple to classify our preferences. I took much interest in human psychology and sexuality in college, and learned a lot. If only everyone could learn more and become more tolerant to sexual freedom and expression.
This is what makes it difficult to really become who you are before reaching adulthood. Peer pressure, norms, self-esteem, etc all keep us so restricted in expressing ourselves. Admit it, all of us wanted friends and popularity at some point growing up and fitting in was all that mattered to many of us. We were also so influenced by the fact that "boys do this, girls do that..and if you don't like it that way, your an outcast and people ridicule you" Even those who tried to express themselves were labeled as "confused"
With all that said, I have decided to join this site to read what others have to say, and to be able to express my thoughts, and myself for that matter, with others who are understanding and can relate. I have not talked to family or friends about this, which I know is unfortunate, but this forum gives me a place to start, and will hopefully build my confidence to gradually bring out the woman inside me more each day. I eventually wish to meet and develop a relationship with a Woman who is willing to nurture and foster the growth of my womanhood.
I look forward to everyone's responses and hopefully I get an opportunity to meet and chat with some new people!
PS I apologize for the length, and that this post might belong on another topic board, or that it might exist in some form already somewhere else...but thank you so very much for reading!